you know when you do something wonderful, and you feel happy and amazing and content because you know everything in your life is working the way it's supposed to?

and then someone you care about uses your worst fears against you?
even better yet: they flaunt it?


that's where i'm at right now.

enough repeats and i'm just going to stop making friends.


maybe now i'll paint and read and write and photograph like i'm meant to.



right now being out of everett is going to be my only saving grace.

thank god i'm good at cutting people out of my life.

i love the things i deem necessary for maintaining my life.



if the silence didn't ring, i'd get rid of the music too.